Tuesday, 17 September 2013

Dry Patch: All my inspiration? Gone.

Source *throws tumbleweed into picture*
Recently, I've been going through phases in my life which I have decided to appropriately name 'dry patches'. The most recent dry patch is that I currently have no muse, no motivation...no hope to sum it up. It began last week in my last and most hopeless lesson, Maths (the bane of my existence). I couldn't understand the topic and it left me more frustrated than I had ever been, like ever. Right there and then, I gave up (and only a week and a bit into the school year,cue round of applause as I have broken a new record ) on everything. And since, I have done nothing but mope, mope, mope, mope, mope...you get the picture. The only thing I seem to enjoy doing now is sleeping and even that is short lived.

This current state of mind sucks but I can't seem to get out of it. Before, I had a reason behind everything or at least a result to whatever I was doing but now, I just think "why am I doing this?"  ALL THE TIME. Why am I even typing this now? 

Uh. Life. Such a confuzle. 


Sunday, 15 September 2013

What's in my school bag?

I have finally, finally found some time to squeeze in a blog post! Okay, that is part lie and part truth, I took the pictures with the intent of writing and posting today but I was suppose to finish my Chemistry homework first but I've tossed that aside in boredom just so I can write this. I will get back to it, I just couldn't focus knowing that the pictures I took were sitting lonely and unseen in my camera. Besides, I'm still on the topic of school, right? Good, I no longer feel guilty :) I have been wanting to do this post since school started so I am ver ver excited especially after reading hundreds of these all over the place, so, without further ado, this is What's in my school bag.

Of course, the bag itself! I bought this  beauty from Accessorize after a frantic search on the day before school started. When I found it, I nearly cried out in happiness. It is the perfect colour as my school only allow navy and black, it's a great size and its a backpack! If you scroll down on the website, you'll see I've left a review!

1. Water is something you need in pretty much every bag and since I've been going down the 'healthy route', I have been trying to drink as much as I can.
2. Wipes. By the end of the school day, my hands feel horrible and dirty, if there isn't a sink nearby to wash my hands, then I whip out my trusty wipes. They're also great for stains and spills haha.
3. Spare glasses. I never had spare glasses before but after one fatal night were I sat straight onto my only pair, I deiced it was something I had to own and carry around, so now I do!
4.School Planner/Diary. My school life revolves around my planner. I need it to take notes for homework and exam days. I never let my friends get a hold of this; it is literally doodle central for them.
5. Mascara and Eyeliner are the only things that can make me look awake after getting up at quarter to six in the morning. I always have them in my school bag so if I don't have time in the morning, I can pop to the toilet in school and quickly put them on ;)
6. Sandwich box. Being the money saving mongrel I am (ha) I try to take sandwiches to school instead of buying lunch. This snack box from Debenhams is the cutest little thing ever! And its sarcastic! Like me! It also comes in another colour with another cool slogan.
7. A book. It is extremely, extremely rare for me not to have a reading book in any bag I carry. I am read whenever I see a chance, whether that be on my way to my next class (which proves very difficult) on the very loud bus journey. I just started Wallbanger and I love it already!
8. School books. The very reason I even carry a school bag.

And now I shall disappear once again, hopefully not for too long although I do have a maths exam in November ehhhhhh! Wish me luck!! I hope you enjoyed this post!


Wednesday, 4 September 2013

S is for September.

September is here and along with it, a hundred other things. 

S is for School.

Today was my first day back at school. I am officially now in year eleven; one year from sixth form, three from uni. The thought of it all is crazy, it feels like just yesterday I was running around in my primary school playground playing 'kiss tag' without a care in the world. But now, I have to crack down. Today, I was told "This is it. This is what you have been working for since you were four years old. This year. Don't mess it up" No pressure then! If I am completely honest, I am terrified. I run out of steam after about half a mile; I'm a difficult one to motivate and to keep me motivated is twice the task. But I am 100% determined to keep going and to not stop until I achieve what all these endless years of school have built up to! And if I am really as serious about this as I am convincing myself then that means making some serious sacrifices.

 I am so easily distracted its unbelievable. So what does that mean? I am deactivating or possibly deleting my Facebook and Twitter (sob) accounts. What does that mean for my blogger and more importantly my blog? Even though it will be one of the hardest things I will have to do, logging in everyday to blogger will no longer be an option. I will have to temporarily stop reading my favorite blogs. As for my blog, posting two or three times a week won't be happening any more. It will (fingers-crossed) be more of a fortnightly occurrence. Because I could never completely give up blogging. I love it way to much.

S is also for Saying No.

That sounds like a terrible title until I explain it. I am a massive Spongebob Squarepants fan. I don't know if any of you are (I think I'll do a get to know you post, so I learn a lot more about my followers and the people that read my blog) but there is an episode where Spongebob actually buys an abrasive side as he says yes a little to often, especially at times where it is most inconvenient. He ends up making too many commitments so much so that he hardly has nay time left for himself. I am a bit like Spongebob is in this episode. I just find it so hard to say no. Its seriously a problem! I over commit myself and then just sulk in a corner thinking, 'why didn't I just explain that I had other things to do?" But unlike Spongebob, I will not go crazy and say 'bug off' to everyone who kindly asks me a favor, I'll very nicely turn a few people down.

As well as saying no to certain people, I even need to say no to things that aren't even physical! Part of my whole turning over a new leaf is to get healthy and stay healthy. I am saying no to junk food (that includes fast food chains), fizzy drinks, heck even juice! I am all about water hahahaha. I am saying no to just sitting in front of the TV  lazing around for hours on end and I am saying no giving up.

And S is for Stepping Forward.

Recently, I've noticed that I've become somewhat of a commitment phobe. I stick to nothing and that is probably what I dislike most about myself. I am so scared that I'm going to quit when the going gets tough, that I can't even try/plan anything for fear that I will drop it. But not this year. This is a habit that I am nipping in the bud. I will no longer take steps backwards. From this day on all I will do is step forward, that is the only way for me to make any progress! And not just in school, but in everything that I try to do whether that be sticking to an exercise regime or saving up a little bit of money to spend on a friend for their birthday.   

Keeping with moving forward, I'm even looking for a job! Nothing to big so that I can still focus on my work, but maybe something for the Saturday's to save up a little money for myself. This month is like a new year for me and I am feeling super, super optimistic about it. As Savannah from one of my favorite TV shows, Hellcats, would say "Positive outcomes only". In fact, I am going to make a banner that says that and stick it somewhere I can look every morning.

I know hardly anybody reads my blog but I thought I'd write this as a little life update and just in case someone new popped over, they wouldn't think I had completely abandoned plumcherrytree.

lots and lots of love

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...